So here's the thing, boys are awful! I've been learning this more and more, lately, and struggle with it every time something happens. For example, there was this boy, and for privacy purposes we will call him Alex, that I really cared about for a while. I worked with him and he was nice, but kind of kooky. We ended up being close, well what I was open and honest but he wasn't (I'll explain a little further down), and spent a lot of time together. We never labeled anything or even talked about what was going on except for when my brother told him I talked about him all the time! (LOL) So we just did our own thing, had fun, the usual. Then all of a sudden he felt the need to just withdraw, and I was not having that. On new year's day I finally messaged him and said, "I don't know what is going on and you're ignoring me so we need to talk about this." We ended up talking for several hours in which I found out 1) he wasn't honest and filtered himself constantly, and 2) he hung out with me because he "didn't want to hurt my feelings." (As if that wasn't going to hurt my feelings right there). Needless to say Alex and I were no longer friends.
Regardless of what happened between Alex and I we struggled to maintain being normal friends. It was awkward and previously I considered him one of my best friends. I struggled to detach and not text him at the very moment something reminded me of him. We went on like this for months, I quickly was over it, and now find myself very peeved by his antics. Recently I was scrolling through my Instagram and see a picture that one of my friends posted. I recognized all of the usernames who had recently liked it (she had less than eleven likes so it was still the list of names) except for one. Naturally I clicked on the username I didn't recognize and was surprised to find it was Alex's Instagram, and I was blocked. I was surprised mainly because previously he mentioned how he didn't have Instagram, I almost expected to be blocked because he had always been immature about handling things appropriately, so it was not that big of a deal. It was mainly something to laugh at. Alex and I work together and boy have I learned my lesson. "Dating" (first off isn't as cool as it seems if thats what we were considered to be doing) in the workplace is sometimes a lesson you have to learn on your own, but take it from me, it makes things a little more awkward and slightly tense. It's interesting to see how others choose to behave in certain situations, though. Maybe I should choose Sociology for a major in college?
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